-berhenti- (Part II)

once akuh dh start syg,
akuh syg gn sepenuh ati..

once akuh dh start percaye,
akuh percaye gn seluruh jiwe..

once akuh dh start bkk pintu ati,
akuh bkk dgn seluas-luas nyew..

xkire lah in relationship o fwenship,
ble akuh wt sket2 akuh ssh nk rse,
mayb e2 kelemahan akuh,
n when i applied all those things akuh akan jd sgt depending,
n bnd 2 yg akan wt akuh ssh kn owg sekeliling akuh..

hmm..
any solution 4 dat? =(

::SuhadanuaR::

mungkin..?

bila malam telah datang,
terkadang ingin ku tulis,
semua perasaan..
kata orang cinta itu indah,
namun bagiku adakalanya ia menyiksa,
sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku tutup saja pintu hati,
namun mampukah aku sendiri?

ku pejamkan mata bila ingin bernafas lega,

dalam perjalanan ini,
sering diriku berada di persimpangan yang sulit untuk ku putuskan,
ku peluk semua indah hidupku,
hikmah yg ku rasa sangat tulus,
adakah dengan ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa?
namun mungkin ada yg hilang separuh hidupku...


yg b'jalan terus tanpa henti,
::SuhadanuaR::

-berhenti-

penat bergantung,

penat berharap,

xksh lah kat sape2 pon,

sbb one dayh nti mesti kecewa,

so,

tolong berhenti bg harapan,

n me masef kne berhenti bergantung kt owg len,

bergantung kt diri sendri jew,

sbb diri sndri tau pe yg diri sndri wt,

sbb owg len mayb akan o telah wt bnd yg kte xphm n kte xkan pnah phm,

pastu nti yg saket diri sendri,

pastu akan susahkn kwn3 len,

ble kate sshkn kwn3 len 2 b'maksud bergantung kt kwn3 len lak lah kn?

so,

STOP IT wahai suhada!

bergantung lah pada diri sendiri sahaja,

penat..

penat..

penat..


::SuhadanuaR::

fight utk yg t'sayang

dear kwn2 ku sayang,

tolonglah fight utk owg yg kowg nak..
tolonglah fight utk owg yg u kowg suke..
tolonglah fight utk owg yg kowg sayang..

ask ursef whether u really want him o not?
if it's a yes then ask ursef again sanggup x kowg nk tanggung d'pain?
sanggup x kowg tanggung any bad consequences?
sbb yg nk tanggung saket nye diri kowg sendri..

if u choose to quit fighting n trying,
then u kne terime lah if u xdpt die.

but there's a saying;
kalau kowg nk sum1 u've 2 fight 4 it,
afta dh usahe sungguh2 tp xdpt gk mayb he isnt 4u,
but one day if he comes back,
he is 4 u..

kwn2,
slagi owg yg kowg nk 2 bkn milik owg len,
fight lah slagi kowg mampu,
obviously it is wrong rampas owg len nyew,
so dun do it!
ever!
cuz even if u got him pon ur life will b filled wif guilt!

saket tau ble kowg xmampu nk fight atas alasan die hak owg len..

so slagi owg yg kowg nk 2 xkate;
"u..it wasnt u dat i want..it's her"
(o anythin yg lbey kuang cm 2)
then kowg kne fight all out!
but once die dh came out gn dat kind of statement,
then u've 2 back off,
saket mmg saket,
tp atleast u've tried ur very besh..kn?

so kwn2 ku,
skali agi;

tolonglah teruskan usahe n perjuangan kamuh sume e2.

akuh doakan yg t'baek utk kowg,
utk kisah cinta kowg =]


::SuhadanuaR::

i do need u,

"hey,just remember,hang tough,and u always have me."


hey,

thanx a lot,

i do need u,

juz b who u r n who we r,

juz like d'past few years,

i love dat more than anythin..



::SuhadanuaR::

same tp x serupe =]

on d'18th of february;

[lepak gn enol]
plan nk g anta bella gn ayu kt airport.shud b on d'14th lepak gn enol gn bella tp xjd sbb de keje.so dr start amik enol tym tgh ari sampai ah tym nk anta die lik kitorg sembg non-stop.gusip2 e2 sudah pasti~hahaha!!!=p bwk cik kak nih g jln2 kt alamanda.lalu t'cetus ah idea makcik nih nk bkk bisnes design sliper..huhu!pe2 pon gudlux eh nol? =]

[anta bella kt LCCT]
around 5pm gerak from uma.kate nyew bella nk lik australia.e2 menurut ainul ah.so akuh pon nk babai2 ah gn enol.at 1st akuh pon cm plek gk asal nk lik australia naek air asia?tp pk2 lik,mayb de kot sbb air asia now g london pon de.so ble dh smpai LCCT 2 nmpk bella gn bf die jew.so akuh pon tny ah,b'due jew ke?cm t'pk gk,xkan fam bella xmau anta die kn?so dgn ilex nyew bella jwb,"ala..lik kelantan jew kot.lik australia on 26th"twos akuh turn sharp kt enol.mmg xleh pkai tol makhluk sowg nih.huhu!wrong info wupe nyew.seb baek xblikn bella cokelet ke pe ke kn?kalo x agi cm malu.huhu~tp xrse wugi pon sbb dpt jmpe bella even jp jew pon.dh byk kali dh cancel nk jumpe.but atlast~nway,tenkiu enol sbb m'realisasikn impian akuh utk ketemu sama bella..icecece~ =p

[anta ayu kt KLIA]
around 7pm gerak g KLIA from LCCT.ayu kne check in kol8.seb baek sempat jumpe.cian kt trex ah sbb dh nk smpai dh tp ayu dh check in.smpt ah sembg2 jp gn ayu.sembg sket2 gn fam die.me+enol gave her sumthin (ayu..jge leklok tau?lik mesia nti pulang lik eh?syg sgt gamba 2.huhu~kiddin2 =p ).wmai xdpt nk anta ayu sbb sme owg dh start test+exam+quiz.tp xpe kot.i think ayu phm =]

on d'28th February;
[hurul's wedding dayh]
few days afta lepak gn enol,akuh dpt tau from azliana yg hurul,ma classmate tym kt jb dlu nk kawen dh.so pungpangpungpang ah pakat nk g.actully d'excitment more 2 nk jmpe dak2 yg len sbb dgr cm wmai gk yg nk twon.dak utm skudai pon twon.dis wedding ala2 mini gath gk ah utk all d'fighters.ngee~so,dat morning kol930 g ukm dlu,gather gn dak2 c2 n bru gerak g tmpt hurul.kol11 bru smpai.huhu!seb baek smpt tgk akad nikah.dat wedding is kinda simple but tgk hurul hepih kre ok ah 2 =] mmg dak2 nih sakan amik gmba,sakan b'sembg b'gusip.huhu!

[mini gath 4 fighters]
afta dat wedding,sume gerak g jj cheras slatan.igt nk spend tym 2gether.dh smpai sne,afta dh smyg2 sme,pk2 lik,btr g lepak maple jew sbb jmpe sure nk sembg2.kalo nk tgk movie len taon pon leh.huhu! so sme gerak ah lak g maple kt ss15.tym 2 yg tgl akuh+temah+tipah+azliana+as+zaza+nadjamil+kim+shake.pas2 leh ah lak update psl life msing2.psl rltnshp nih of cos ah one of d'main stuff yg kitorg sembg.aduih~huhu!around 430 gerak g ukm,lepak kolej temah.smbung nyembg2 agi smpai kol630 bru anta tipah gn nad g kmtr.akuh pon lik ah uma..

1st march;
[kluar xplan]
pg2 kol8 bgn dpt msg from farr kate die de kt ukm.smpai mlm td.die a bit upset sbb xdpt nk attend wedding hurul sbb de test.nway,die ajak lepak2 n anta azliana gn shake g pudu.agipon akuh pon dh lame xnyembg gn cik kak sowg nih.so akuh+temah+farr+azliana+shake pon b'jln2 ah kt kl.g jln tar ah,g sungei wang ah.seseko dh pnat tp nk jln gk.huhu!yg besh nyew 2day 'sonok' tuka train ah.bpe kali salah naek train.aduhai~huhu!

sgt3 windu mbr2 stf.akuh can b considered as agak lucky gk ah when it comes 2 fwenships sbb tym kua2 gn dak2 nih dowg de yg kate rse len ah ble lepak gn mbr2 stf sbb de mbr2 dowg yg len xhuhahuha cm dak2 stf kot.but as 4 me i'm soooooo lucky sbb kt stf dlu akuh dpt kwn huhahuha,kt campus pon akuh dpt kwn huhahuha.kt skula dlu ble akuh sdey2 o hepih2,akuh share gn yann+farr+temah n mbr2 yg len.kt campus now nih pon akuh de anis+mia n yg len2 yg treat akuh as gud as ma stf fwens did.tp bse ah 2 dlm fwenship de xpuas ati ere n thr but normal ah bnd 2 kn?as 4 me,b'kwn gn mbr2 stf n b'kwn gn mbr2 campus d'excitment almost d'same but of cos ah d'feelin ere n thr de a bit different.wut eva it is,akuh b'syukur sgt3 dpt kwn2 cm yg akuh de now nih.mayb nk contact frequently 2 xdpt ah sbb sume owg de life msing2.as long as x lost cntc n ble de rezki leh jmpe,dat's more than enuf,kn? =] hey fighters 0105..akuh syg kowg sume sgt3 =]


ainul,me n bella @LCCT



me, ayu n ainol @ KLIA



me n d'fighters on hurul's wedding dayh



me, azliana n shake @ JJ Cheras Selatan


::SuhadanuaR::