deep..

when u r not there
i'm wondering where d'hell r u
when i saw u
i was afraid to meet u
when i met u
i was afraid to love u
when i loved u
i was afraid to lose u..

::SuhadanuaR::

menyanyi sekuat ati~

i juz reach home from picking up ma aunt from a place,
b4 dat i went 2 clinic wif ma mum 4 a lil check up,
on ma way 2 pick up ma aunt td kn;

kowg tau x akuh ske nyanyi?
hahahaha!!!
yup!
sgt3 ske!
esp in d'shower~
muhahahaha!!!
but td tym drive sowg2 akuh wt bnd yg akuh rse puas gle3!
akuh xdrive laju pon,
60km/j jew,
but ma mp4 volume mmg almost reach d'limit,
ngee~
i know it wasnt a gud thing 2 do ble drive n pkai mp3@mp4 o bnd2 yg melibatkn earphone d'tinge,
if ppl honking o wuteva kte xdgr,
so..dun try dis at home k?
hok3~

b'balek pd bakat yg kte perkatekan td =p
i sang few songs out loud,
lagu utk mu+underneath ur clothes+the loneliness+7things+family potrait+there's nothing+percaya pd cinta+situasi+cinta+tegar+kau ada dia+ n beberape agi lgu len.
(seb baek ah xjao,kalo x mmg abes suare dow..huu~)
actually lgu2 e2 d'pilih atas dasar hafal lirik snanyew,
ngee~
i dunno y but ble nyanyi 2 rse puas gle3,
rse mcm stu bnd dlm ati nih (xtau ah beban o perasaan) rse lepas sket,
i think i shud do it more often am i?
(abah..nk kete sndri plish?)

ble akuh rse sdey o preasure akuh ske drive,
akuh pon xtau npe,
tp ble drive 2 cm rse..ntah..tp stu ketenangan ah,
nk agi besh bkk lagu kuat2 nyanyi s'kuat2 ati,
bkn owg kete sblh leh dgr pon,
tp dr lua nmpk kte cm owg gle ah ngange mulot luas2,
hahahahha!!!
n of cos ah auto sbb mls nk pk2 nk tuka2 gear,
juz tekan myk n break =]
tp akuh rse sgt3 bahye if akuh wt cm 2 sbb ble otak dok pk2 bnd len kte jd xfocus,
ble x focus..devider jln yg suda terang agi b'spotlight 2 pon xleh nmpk,
alamat nyew bwh kete kakak ku e2 t'sagat dan agak twok kondusinyew,
begitu jugek dgn bumper s'besar kayu balak d'depan mate,
e2 pon xnmpk n akuh break mengejut,
lalalalla~
twok kn?
owg dh bg pnjm kete akuh g jahanam kn lak,
huhu~

alahai,
nk bebel agi but nk kne kua dh,
nk bwk ma adek2 g jln2,
baek kn kakak?
hok3~

later~


::SuhadanuaR::

shukran!

kehadapan kawan2 sayeh yg t'sayang,

dh nk msok 21 taon akuh idop kt muke bumi nih,
xtau ah mampu o x nk cecah umor byk2..wallahualam..
tp slame hampir 21 taon nih mcm2 jns kwn yg akuh jumpe,
kte xleh nk expect kwn2 kte 2 perfect kn sbb kte sndri pon byk kurgnyew,
tp kdg2 2 cm sweet lak sbb kurg kte lbey kt die..kurg die lbey kt kte..kn? =]
ala2 u complete me gituh~
ngee~

owg salu ckp psl beShfwen..truefwen..closefwen..n any other term of fwen,
kdg2 akuh sndri cm takot gn term2 cm 2,
cm takot xleh nk reach d'expectation of certain degree of those terms,
akuh pnh de dlm c2ation whereby akuh meninggalkn dan d'tglkn owg yg b'gelar kwn,
akuh pnh de dlm c2ation akuh menyakiti dan d'sakiti owg yg b'gelar kwn,
akuh pnh de dlm c2ation akuh mengelirukn dan d'kelirukan owg yg b'gelar kwn,
byk agi ah c2ation yg kdg2 akuh sndri pon xphm npe jd cm 2,
manusia kn..sme de ragam masing2,

i used 2 read o heard from sumwhere yg kate..
"treat others as u want ursef 2 b treated"
tp kte manusia biase kn?
kdg2 kte xmampu nk penuhi semue keinginan kwn2 kte,
sme gk cm ble kte xpuas ati gn layanan o attention kwn2 kte,
nk x nk kte kne agp yg die pon manusia biase cm kte yg de byk comitment len,
pk ah pe2 yg patot yg leh wt kte sng ati n let dat fwenship remains.. =]

kpd semue mereke2 yg b'gelar kwn2 kpd NurSuhadaAnuar,
seploh jari disusun mohon ampun dan maaf if de salah silap tlbey tkurg,
n tlg guide akuh if akuh dh t'pesong jaoh,
tlg papah akuh if akuh xmampu bangun dh,
n tlg bantu akuh utk sembuh if akuh cedera parah,
sbb akuh rse akuh xmampu kot nk idop sendri kt dunie yg superdupercomplicated nih,
akuh de Dia yg satu yg akuh yakin akan tlg akuh,
akuh de family back ere yg sentiase support akuh,
n u guys adelah another ingrediant penting dlm memastikn ratio dlm idop akuh betol!

kpd sume kwn2 akuh,
kowg tau spe kowg,
juz wanna let u guys know yg akuh sgt3 b'trime kaseh kt kowg,
thanx 2 technology gk sbb leh wt kte sme intouch even sme owg jao n bz,
akuh sayang kowg sme sgt3 =]

special dedication 2;
amal+bagan+arnish+syera+mia+hetti+ajenie+acha+mar+areyol+
za8+arm+hamz+zul+reez+fadhil+alex+akimadnan+dumbell+gyn+
acap+capi+ eijat+dihaq+temah+yann+chark+farr+ayu+poo+meot+
jack+zatinaem+bella+shamat+tikah+ainul++nola+keynah+mizah+
watif+ nadsaat+mai+gee+zuhairah+farhana2+zafirah+rahimah+arif+
kawthar+farika+ dollah+ucop+ rashid+liyana+aiman+razman+
shafie+shikin+hanis+ izyan(smuge rohmu d'cucuri rahmat)+ aishah+
fikri+udin+bajan+acap+izlan+syafiq+erna+yan+maisarah+
w.n.syuhada+adibah+hani+hafiz etc.
*de wmai agi snanye..2 those yg name akuh t'missed i'm so sowi k..


::SuhadanuaR::

secawan coffee..

urm,
dunno where o how 2 begin,
i'm losing words..

secawan coffee yg d'bancuh dgn gula 2 sdp,
tp mayb coffee 2 leh jd pahit if ratio x kne kn?
kdg2 t'kurang creamer,
kdg2 t'lbey air,
tp kdg2 ble kte obses gn coffee 2..
ble kte yakin coffee 2 yg kte ske..
ble kte yakin coffee 2 penawar utk segale nyew,
pelik cmne pon rse die kte akan cube telan,
sbb it WORTH..

eventhough kte sdar pahit coffee 2 mayb akan tglkn kesan pd diri kte,
tp sampai stu tahap 2 kte tutup mate..n njoy d'taste of the precious hotdrink,
owg keliling kte yg tau how d'hotdrink suppose 2 b done akan bising sket,
kurang creamer coffee kurang lemak,
t'lebey aer coffee jd tawar,
mereka2 yg bg pndgn 2 xb'salah,
they juz care n concern,
they want d'beSh 4u,
thanx 2 every1..

sum of them mayb previously pnah rse sndri coffee yg cm 2,
o sum of them mayb pnh tgk cmne efek dat kind of coffee 2wards others,
so dowg xmau kesan 2 kne kt tuan nyew bdn yg berani mati nk cube minum coffee 2,
kdg2 tuan nyew bnd 2 t'pakse disobey certain principle of making a perfect coffee,
ble spe2 de kt tmpt tuan nyew bdn 2 die akan realize..it WORTH!
kesedapan+kelazatan+keistimewaan coffee 2 mayb b'sifat temporary,
tp more than enuf kot..
more than enuf..

ble kte dh minum coffee yg cmni kn,
kte akan hilang kelayakan utk bg guideline kt owg len on how 2 make a gud coffee,
yup,
hilang kelayakan,
tp xpe ah kot..ntah..hm..
*paras gula kimia dlm coffee 2 tgi ngat kot smpai sume bnd jd xpe,kn?

in making dis kind of coffee mayb akan wt creamer kedai Pak Kassem xlaku,
o mayb akan wt bill yg nk kne byr kt Syabas tgi,
tp..ntah..

ble dri sndri dh tau de side efek ble minum coffee ni,
juz b prepared if one day nti kne msk emergency room 4 non-stop bleeding,
dh jln nih yg kte pilih..kn?

4 now..juz dok tepi tingkap,
drink d'precious hotcoffee,
n feel d'wind blow..



::SuhadanuaR::

pesanan o9..

1002am,
o1Jan2009,
Permata Chalet,
Pengkalan Balak.

Angin pantai sampaikan lah pesan,
Kepada si dia yang sehingga kini tak ketemuan,
Moga aku tenang dalam penantian,
Moga aku tenang dalam pencarian,
Wahai kekasih hati yang ku dambakan..

Angin pantai sampaikan lah pesan,
Kepada putera hati yang diimpikan,
Bertanya kan tentang rindu yang tak tertahan,
Adakah dirinya merasa apa yang diri ini rasakan?

Angin pantai sampaikan lah pesan,
Kepada alam semesta yang bakal menyaksikan,
Cinta agung yang akan dipertaruhkan,
Agar untuk sekian kalinya tak terhenti di tengah jalan..

Angin pantai sampaikan lah pesan,
Kepada empunya diri ini yang acapkali melakukan kesilapan,
Yang juga acapkali menghadapi kekeliruan,
Dalam membuat keputusan menentukan masa depan,
Moga kesilapan lama tidak berulangan,
Kesilapan yang mampu mengukir seribu kekecewaan..


::SuhadanuaR::